The Value of a Gift

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Another Semester Over

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Mother's Day

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My Friend, Jordan

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Believe

"I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and I believe in miracles."

 - Audrey Hepburn

I Will Always Love You

It's hard. Sitting here like this. Because I know I can do so much more for him, but he won't let me into his life again.

We're slowly getting closer again... every time we talk, I feel as though we have created a better bond between us, and things are slowly becoming what they used to. When we broke up, he shut me out of his life. He put up a barrier. He ignored me, pushed me away, wouldn't talk to me about anything; and I know it was because of the break up. He was trying to get away from me. But, that didn't stop me.

Beautiful Weather, Beautiful Life

What can I say, beautiful weather outside just puts me in such a good mood (:

I may claim rain is my favorite weather, but days like today are right up there with it.

Sunny, with settle clouds about. It's warm, but cool at the same time. A slight breeze. It's just beautiful. I open my window up and lift up my blinds, letting the sun shine in.

Who needs music, when you have the sounds of nature around you. The slight breeze of the wind rustling the leaves in trees, birds chirping; it's just so soothing.

Sitting out in the backyard on the deck, watching the sunset. Unbelievable.

Days like today, really make me appreciate all the little things in my life. It's impossible for me not to be happy with this weather surrounding me. It really motivates me. It's inspiring.

This is just the first sign of days to come this summer, and I can't wait. I know my summer is going to be very blessed :)

To-Do List

As I said in my previous post, I have really high hopes for this month. It's already the first week, and I feel absolutely amazing. I am planning to make this month the best so far this year (:

I haven't made much progress on bettering my life so far this year... even after what I said way back in January :( So this is my second To-Do list containing stuff I really would like to get done this month, and over the summer and hopefully be able to continue on with:

April Showers Bring May Flowers

I don't think any phrase could have been a more accurate metaphor for how the past month has been.

April was a very "showery" month, I guess you could say. It was a very hard month for me. I was going through a lot in my life, and I guess I was a little depressed for a while :/ But the past week or so, I realized this, and I changed my ways to be happy once more :D

After this past month, I feel as though May should be bringing me a lot of flowers. Now that the rain is over, it's time to bring out the sunshine from behind the clouds (:

Who knows what kind of flowers will be showing up around me. Maybe...

A daffodil, for new beginnings and new adventures.

A carnation, for good luck.

A lily, for friendship.

A tulip, for cheerfulness and fun.

A sunflower, for warmth and happiness.

And maybe...

A rose... for a little romance :)

You never know what life will bring you, and you never know what kind of flowers will sprout up along your path (:

Source: http://www.teleflora.com/about-flowers/flower-meaning.asp

Good-Bye Nick Nick :(

So today, early this morning, my friend Nick (whom I like to call my BFF from Cananda) left on a 3 month trip to Australia. 3 months. That is a loooong time to be gone.

He won't have service on his cell phone, nor will he be on the internet as much. He will most likely barely even be able to get on MSN, which was our main source of communication :/

He said he is going to Australia just to live life a little more. To have new experiences, new adventures, meet new people, have a good time, start over fresh in a new area, etc. I honestly think that is very cool, personally I would love to do that one day. Just go out and live on my own in a new environment, new culture, for a while. But I know my parents would never let me do that. So I am very envious of him.

I am happy for him, trust me. I think this is a very good experience for him. But... I know I will miss him ._. He may not think I will, but life just won't be the same without him. Although we didn't talk as often, and even though he was a complete and total ass to me sometimes (or most of the time) I still really enjoyed his company, and we have become pretty close over the past couple of months. It's going to be weird trying to adjust not being able to communicate with him at all for 3 months...

It just makes me wonder. Will he be thinking about me at all and missing me? Will he forget about me by the time he comes back? I have had a similar experience before with another friend, and not communicating for a couple months pretty much tore our friendship apart... and I don't want that to happen again.

I wish him the best and I hope he gets to experience and find what he was looking for out there.

I guess... you never really realize how much someone means to you, until they're gone... :/